15th dec

Happy Birthday mama!!
You've always been my best mama in the world!
I will always love you!




You just treated me like your own dog.
Everything you do it's always right.
It was terrible for me to lead such life.
You make my life feel miserable.
I really hated you, but i didn't want to say it out loud.
And once more, I HATE YOU!
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Wake at 11a.m. today. Was freaking hell no mood. Papa bought donut so have to eat it. Packed my luggage till 2 plus and have lunch. Something happened after that, which make me hate my life now. Everything I do makes me feel miserable. All because of ******. I didn't want to spell it out the name. It just makes me feel like a bitch having that person staying around me. Going to ah gong's house later with papa, jiejie and didi. (:

P.S. My blog timing was all wrong so pls look at the date instead of the time... Thanks! (:

Happy Birthday, See Mun!! XD
Hope u have a wonderful and enjoyable day today!! (:

No photos today too...haha, as i'm still emo-ing. I'm feeling a little bit better right now. Wake up at exactly 11a.m., by the nightmare i had. I dreamt that i'm gonna being killed by my didi. When the knife just touch my skin, i immediately woke up with a start. I found out that i'm persipring and crying at the same time. Lol. That was a weirdest dream i've ever had. Had roti prata for breakfast. Yum! Yum! It's been years since i've had eaten it again. After eating, went to sat on my bed looking at the sky watching the birds fly and the cars zooming all around, when suddenly papa shouted right into my ears, saying,"mian hao le, qu chi liaos". I was startled, and started scolding papa. Had 'yi mian' for lunch. Yum! Yum! All my favourite food today yeas!! Love it man! Haha! Later at night maybe having rice with broccoli and salmon! YUM! I love broccoli and salmon! Haha! Was thinking what to packed for the trip to china. Me and jiejie was thinking to packed t-shirts when mama came in and say 'nonono' to us. Then there goes the quarrel again between my mama and jiejie. I was always at the centre, like a dummy. Watching them quarrel seema like a good movie for me yeas! Lol... Off to facebook le...(:

I really hate the life I am going through now...
Everything has begun to change..
Even myself which use to be quite a cheerful person,
becoming a quiet person who doesn't speak much any more.
I'm just...useless...
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Yesterday night went to shopping with family. Headed to Jurong Point, fairprice xtra. Waited for mama while shopping around. After a while, mama came and we bought all the stuffs that we need. Pay for it and went home. Stopped by at pioneer mall, cus papa and didi want to eat burger. 'Tah pao' go home. Something happened when we are heading home. Don't wish to elaborate. Hom-ed at around 1 plus and slept at 2 plus.
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Wake at 11 plus. I was shocked man, cus i thought i will wake at an earlier time. Ate my choco peanut donut at a corner. Don't feel like talking to anyone yeas. I was too depressed. Haha, the donut taste not so good for me too. Maybe it was because of my emotions right now. If i'm happy the donut taste good. If i'm not happy, the donut taste bad. Lol... After eating, went to sat down on my head, using handphone. Played some games till lunch time. Ate lunch alone too. Sat down on the sofa, while looking at jiejie preparing to go to meet her boy. Not long after she went out, papa, mama and didi went out too. They asked me to tagged along, but I said no. I was emo-ing throughout the whole afternoon... Sigh! Let's not talk about the bad things. Today's dance class was fun. Only 5 people turn up yarhs. Actually we should continue learning 'ring ding dong', but everyone forget the steps. So we learn "house". We all keep doing the wrong steps and ended up laughing at ourselves. Haha.. That's for today, i think. No photos, as i look damn damn ugly with my face being pulled down...):


A tiring day for me today yeas... Was dreaming when my stupid alarm clock wake me up. ): Get up from bed and get ready to go to school. Reached school at 9 and met up with Pearlyn, Nithiya and the others. Headed to symphony lab and went back down to the foyer to wait for Yuen Chee. We waited for quite a long time but she still did not turn up. Went back to symphony lab and guess what? She was already there... Lol.. So we are like a dumb dumb there standing waiting for nothing? Haha.. Choir was just a waste of time for me today. Learn the song 'rehab' which some of them had learn in the first day of the camp which i did not turn up. And I didn't even know how to start where to sing. So, i sit'ed' down there watching them sing until the last few minutes where Mr Khoo got fustrated, i think. He was telling us what giving 100% not enough, bla bla bla bla. Anyhow sing with them after the 'scolding'. Felt lke an idiot man. Should have stay at home and sleep as i'm not coming for the next few practices.





Wake at 10 plus today... Was sitting down at the dining table thinking of what to eat when mama came back. She bought sultana crossaint, which was damn nice. (: Thanks mama!! I love you!! Muacks! After breakfast, sat down on the sofa to chat with papa, when suddenly i found out that my stud from the new piercing has dropped! Damn... Try to put another stud, but very painful. Give up! Haha.. It's not likely of me to give up anything but... sigh! Maybe i'll get the piercing done next week once the hole has closed. I didn't expect it to be more painful than high piercing... Sigh... Soon after it was 12 plus so went to bath. Ate the mee that mama cook which was damn delicious! I love mama's cooking man!! Haha. Met up with Yu Ling downstair and bus-ed down to Jurong Point.


Bought the 'new moon' tickets and waited for Elizabeth outside the golden village. She was late for a few minutes yea! Went to shopped around until 3 plus and went back to the cinema.. The movie was damn romantic!! The werewolves were so handsome!! All of them look so macho. Haha.. And Jane from volturi... She looks cool with her eyes so red.. and her skin texture was so nice man. I wish i could be like her.. Maybe i should go to Italy, volturi and asked to be a vampire? Maybe i'll look the same as Jane. Lol.. Haha... The ending was aww... It was like the most exciting part where Edward says, "Marry me, Bella". I was eager to know how will bella answer when the movie was like being cut off.. Sigh...


After the movie, went home alone as need to take care of didi at home, while Elizabeth and Yu Ling went to walked around. Haha.. Bus-ed back home. Hom-ed at 6 plus.
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Going to China next Friday!! 8 more days!! Whoohoo!!

Wake at 12 plus. Was shocked. Get up from bed quickly. Bath, ate lunch and bus-ed down to JP at around 1 plus with jiejie. Train-ed down to CCK to meet angeline cousin. Then, we take bus no. 190 to far east plaza. Shopped around there. The things there was quite cheap. Bought a tiara belt and 2 earrings. Saw a jacket that was damn nice but is damn expensive. It cost $49.90. I want to buy!! But no money.. sigh.. I wish mama can sponsor me siol. After walking around, we become very tired, so went out. Actually want to walk around at ion orchard but end up we train-ed to bishan and shopped at junction 8. Walked around there. Saw a very big Domo which cost $239.90. Quite cheap le larhqs. The domo is like 140+cm tall. Haha. Walked till 6pm then train-ed back to boonlay. Bus-ed back home. Hom-ed at around 7. Very tired arhqs... Tomorrow going to watch new moon with elizabeth, yuling and kuganes. Yay!!! (:

7th Dec





Wake at 9 plus. Bath, ate breakfast and prepare to head to ahma's house for family gathering. Actually should go for choir training camp but... Stay-ed at there till evening 4 plus. Have lunch at ahma's house too. Don't wish to elaborate much on the family gathering yeas.




After that, head to auntie's house. Play-ed with cousins. After that, head to IMM for dinner. Jiejie didn't come cus she went to meet her friends for dinner at sakura. Sigh. Ate at long john silver. Long time never eat liaos, hahas. After dinner, went to daiso to shop. Bought pens. All the things sold there was damn cheap. Everything for $2. Mama bought some biscuits too. Went to Giant supermarket. Bought a small christmas tree, some veggie and bread. Headed home after that. Hom-ed at 9 plus. Decorate the christmas tree with didi. Hahas. XD


8th Dec




Wake up at 8:37am today. Lol! Was late for the camp thingy. Quickly got up and prepare to go. Reached there at 9 plus. They were having dance class. Join-ed them which was quite okays for me to follow up. After the dance class, they distribut the choir tee. S was too big for me so take XS. But it was still quite big yeas. But nevermind, cause the length is just right. Headed to symphony lab and practice for group performance later in the day. My group sings 'i'm yours' which was damn difficult for us at first. Was sigh'ing' all the way while other groups was singing. Ha! We waited till lunch time and headed down to canteen. The food is like.. eww... Don't mention it in case i vomit. Ms neo say she bought is at 815 coffee shop. But i thought the food is always very nice... Lol. Didn't eat finish. Went up again to symphony lab and practice. Perform at 4 plus then we are dismissed. Before dismissal, we have a group photo session but the photo was not with me. Guess i have to take from the others first before i can post it up yea.


Went up again to symphony lab to practice. Perform-ed at 4 plus and then we are dismissed. But before dismissal, we did have a group photo session but the photos are not with me. Guess i have to take from the others who have the photos. Hom-ed at 5 plus. (: Tha's for today yea. Off to facebook le! XD

5th dec


Went to cousin's wedding lunch with papa and didi. Jiejie never go cus she got sore throat and mama also never go cus she need to work. It was the first time i've been to a wedding lunch(I mean, i've been before to wedding dinner but not lunch). It was kinda weird as everytime, people alwasy held wedding dinner instead of lunch. Haha. Met up with ahma at peninsula excelsior hotel. The hotel was damn nice. After a while ershushu and others came and we get to go in and sit down. Talk-ed to angeline while waiting for the bride to enter. The wedding ceremony was kinda weird. Don't wish to elaborate... Too mushy! Haha! The lunch was taste not so good, accept for the rice la. Dind't ate so much though. After eating all the 8 dishes if i'm not wrong, we headed back home. Reach-ed home at about 4 plus. Then somthing happen. Don't wish to say it out, cus it make my heart break...
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Get ready for hiphop class. Today's song was ringdingdong. Was damn fun man, but i kept forgetting the steps. Lol haha! Releas-ed at 9 plus and train-ed down to jurong point to shop with jiejie. Shop and slack around until 12 plus then headed to fairprice xtra to find mama. Mama was still working, so jiejie and i sat down there to chat about what to buy later. Chatted until 2 plus then papa came with his hair damn messy. Try to comb his hair with my comb...haha. Shopp-ed around. Headed back home after that. Hom-ed at 4 plus.

6th dec


Haha, my hair was wet when i take this photo... Wake at 12 plus today. Chatted with my erbiaosao-to-be in the net. Went to bath and ate lunch. Bus-ed down to Jurong point and train-ed down to causeway point with jiejie. Shopped arounf there. Bought some things while deciding whether to pierce our ears. In the end, we did pierce. Jiejie go first cus last time when we have our high piercing, i was forced to go first. So now it's my turn to force her...haha. Was a little painful arhqs. At 4 plus, went back to woodlands mrt station to wait for the blogshop owner to collect our stuffs. After collection, train-ed down to bugis and shopp-ed around there. Bought some stuffs and headed back home. Hom-ed at 7 plus. (:

Wake at 11 plus... The edusave scolarship letter came today. Was damn happy that I got it.XD Ate breakfast and went to sat on sofa, staring into a corner. Was dreaming when suddenly papa and mama quarrel again. And guess what? I was stuck between them. I was trying to tell them to stop quarreling but none of them stopped. So, i locked myself in the room. They are still quarreling when i did that. I was super angry but... haiish... After a few minutes, mama say she is going to jurong point and asked me wanna tagged along. Yea, i did go. Didi went too. Shopped there for about 2 hrs(?). Bought some stuffs and back home. Hom-ed at 2 plus. Have lunch and chatted with jiejie. That's all about it. Don't fell like talking much. I do not know why. Maybe is because of mama and papa quarrel? Sigh...

Was boring staying at home... Jiejie was out, to find jobs again. I want to work too!! But mama don't allow. Cus she say i too young to go and find jobs, later people cheat you then bla bla bla bla. Lol?? -.- Stay-ed at home today. Was not feeling very well though. Actually. mama was planning to go out today but didi didn't finsh his work on time. Damn larhqs!! ): Tidy my table today. Tidying till halfway, i need to dabian so went to toilet. Stay-ed in the toilet for about half an hour(?) before coming out. Didn't tidy up again. Maybe tomorrow bahhx. Lol, i've been saying that from last week till now, but did not kept my promise. Haiz... I can't wait till 18th dec arrived! I'm going to China to see my god mama!! Yipee!!! Really hope time will pass really fast, but as a matter of fact, it pass damn slow.): Off to facebook now! Byes!!

Dad and his 'fav' goat

Me and my pig <^@@^>

Dad!

The bed that we slept on.

Back from Malaysia!! Ha! It was fun man! The chalet was so clean. Even cleaner than the normal ones we have in singapore though the chalet is on the sea. The toilet was damn clean too! But the smell of the sea was horrible as there is a lot of dead fish in the sea. Eww... The food they cooked for us was nice too. Especially the curry puff they made for us in the morning. The shopping was fun too. Went to Jusco. We shopped for 2hr plus. I bought 2 shoes, 1 tee, 1 shoulder bag. Bought mama a bag and jiejie a tee. Headed straight to dinner after shopping. And all the meals we ate have prawns. Lol! Headed to custom after dinner and home sweet home. Hom-ed at ard 8 plus. (:

30th Nov

Wake at 11 plus today. Was damn tired but cannot sleep liaos. Have breakfast and went to tidy my table as it was in a mess. But ended up sitting that playing with my lappy. Lol! Lunch, and taught didi maths. At ard 5 plus, bath, and went to frontier with mama and didi to library. Went to jurong point to have dinner and went to popular. I bought the house of night novels, stamp album, assessments. Soon it was 10 plus, so headed to fairprice xtra. Walk-ed ard and papa bought durians and we headed back home. Hom-ed at 11 plus.